Today is the big day

Today is the day… I am currently in the car on the way to Chicago to get the surgery done (My wife is Driving). How do I feel right now??? Anxious… curious about how I’m going to feel at the end of the day… wondering if I’ll ever have Pizza again… I know sounds crazy food is what got me into this mess… and its not like I’m wanting a piece of Pizza right now.. I’m just wondering if I will ever have a piece again!!! I’m also content… I know that no matter what happens today I am right with God… so if God doesn’t see fit to keep me through this I will just be home with him… Don’t freak out I’m not sitting here thinking that I’m dying… as I’ve said before Iam confident in the surgeon I’m going too.. they have a certificate of excellency and they haven’t lost a patient in 7 years… all is well. I have to say though, my mind is really racing right now, I have SO much running through my mind… for instance apparently post op I will feel like I was kicked in the gut by a mule… now mind you I’ve never been kicked in the gut by a mule but I don’t imagine it is a pleasant feeling!!!! Maybe I can let you know what it feels like tomorrow!!!!! O.k. for now I’m going to get off here, and I will post this as soon as I get to the hospital…. And then off to surgery for me! About my stats… I will try to post them tomorrow, maybe it will be easier when I’m on medication.

Tomorrow is the big day

Tomorrow…. A little over twenty-four hours from now I will be in surgery, and my life will never be the same. It is such an odd feeling, knowing that my body will be altered after today and it will never be the same. I have to admit there is a certain part of me that asks me how I ever let it get to this point; I used to be so particular about what I ate…. Probably to a fault. But then something changed, what was it? I really don’t know. Anyway, I will be getting my bags ready today. Hopefully I will come home on Saturday… and then on the road to recovery.

Two days till Surgery

TWO DAYS!!!! You would be amazed at how many times in the last couple days I have been asked if I was nervous about this operation. The answer is no. Its not because I don’t realize how big of a thing it is, its because I did my homework and know what to expect (as far as the actual procedure goes) I’m not going to go to a local clinic to have it done I’m going to a place that specializes in it, and has a certificate of Excellency, and comes with a good report from others who have been there. All of that being said there is a little anxiety of the 2-3 weeks right after surgery. The thought of the whole pureed food thing is all a little weird to me still, but this to shall pass. I’m sure right before the surgery I might have a little bit of a “this is big” moment, and I’m sure right after I will probably have a “this is REALLY final” moment. I expect those moments. The thing is I am ready for it to be final. Like I’ve said before, I would rather only be able to eat small portions the rest of my life than die before I’m 40. O.k. enough surgery talk.

I didn’t get a chance to say anything yesterday (been really busy trying to wrap things up before the op.) but Sunday nights church service was AWSOME!!!! Even now just thinking about it gets me excited!!! There is nothing like when God moves, and when his people come together in unity seeking his face, it was so great… and in the middle of it all I looked down beside me and my son was standing there with his hands raised and tears streaming down his face… It is truly a moment that takes your breath… My wife and I are very careful to talk to Corbyn about serving God but not try to coax him into things, because I feel like it is better to feel the pull from God than the push from his parents. So to see him Sunday…. Well words can’t describe it… I serve an Awesome God that candor all things and he deserves all honor. He’s the kind of God that can give you peace in the middle of a storm, He’s the kind of God that will see you through when you feel like you aren’t strong enough, and he’s the kind of God that was willing to die for his people… I adore him more than I could ever express.

Children

Stephanie is 4-1/2 months pregnant… halfway. I can’t help but wondering to myself what this baby will be like, will we get along? Boy or Girl? Passive or aggressive? I really don’t know what to expect, but I will love it, and I will prepare a place for it to live with me, And I will have rules that it has to live by, not because I like being the boss but because I know that if I don’t teach it boundaries it won’t know boundaries. When I was growing up I was completely convinced that my Dad really just liked to punish kids and enjoyed the “Power” of being the boss… now that I have my own child I realize all he was doing was trying raise us the best way he knew how… he might have made mistakes, but so did I, and so do I. And ultimately there came a day where I had to choose to either do the things my parents taught me, or make my own set of rules. It’s the same with God, he loves each one of us, and he has given us a path to follow, the question is will we follow in the ways that we are taught, or make our own set of rules? Its sad that so many people have chosen to change God’s teachings to make their own set or rules… the bible says that there is ONE faith…. If everyone is making there own rules they are no longer following his. I have made the mistake once of trying to live by my own set of rules… the thing is, to follow God’s way is better, and it’s actually easier once you stop fighting him… He doesn’t make following him hard, we do.

last pre-op visit now over

Today was a loooong day. But its now over... I wish I had something major to say about it but it really amounts to what I've already said, I will be in the hospital for 2-4 days, I will be on pureed food for about two weeks and then I will be ready to start expiramenting on what i can eat and not.... I am supposed to be walking the day after, and will be free to do "strenuous" activities after 6 weeks... in just ten days i will start the rest of my life!!!!!

the day before the changes start

Surgery 11 days away!
Pre-op Diet starts tomorrow!
Weird feeling of excited and nervous already here!!!!!!
Don’t have a lot to say today, just that I am getting ready for surgery, there is some stuff I want to get done around the house, before hand, hopefully next weekend I will be able to rap most of it up… still planning on posting pre – op pictures and stats on here (dreading it) will probably wait until day of surgery, then I will know it will start changing and I won’t be so “exposed” for too awful long… once I get it out there hopefully I will not almost have a coronary at the thought of it anymore!!!! Funny, I’m the kind of guy who can let things roll off my shoulders pretty easy, but when it comes to telling my weight, I would rather eat worms!!!!!

Lazy Day

Saturday!!! I think the only set in stone thing we have going on today is we might be going to Ohio for a revival tonight. It feels like we are ALWAYS on the go so the thought of hanging around here is so appealing. Anyway I don’t have a lot to say today… just wanted to express my joy that it is Saturday and not jam packed full and overflowing. I hope everyone has a great weekend and though it might be cold remember, this too shall pass, before long we’ll be wishing it would cool down a little (gotta love Indiana)

Speaking of jam packed full I have a question, has anyone made a successful effort to slow down your life? And if so, please tell me what worked for you!!!!!!